"Hang in there. A lil bit more." I carry many things on my shoulders and somehow it feel so hard that any simple request would drive me crazy. In this kind of situation, people lean on their family, rely on them in common. But i have no one. Why do i have no one, even just to talk about my craps? I feel even be more mad when they called me for a very simple favor. Like things they can easily figure out by themselves. Why should be me? I already have no one i can share this craps and all they do is asking me this and that. In this kind of situation, i know that i want someone, other than a family that should be function, to company me, but the desire to death is stronger. Like yesterday after getting back from running, i locked myself in the room and didn't wanna go out wven just to buy dinner. And in the morning, even when i got plenty time to sleep, i still felt so exhausted and didn't wanna get up from my bed. I gathered my self to go out, worked from the cafe, and