chus26pedrosa's diary

 Hari ini aku ingin menulis pakai bahasa Indonesia saja. Sebetulnya, banyak hal kuharap bisa kubagi denganmu. Kuharap ada juga cerita yang kau ingin bagi denganku. Tentang orang di kantormu yg tak kau sukai, tentang temanmu yg konyol suka menghamburkan uangnya, tentang proyek-proyek membetulkan motor yg sering kau ceritakan, tentang ibumu yg berencana pulang ke kampung halaman, tentang adikmu nomor 1 dan dramanya, tentang adik terakhirmu yg mungkin sudah lulus kuliah. Aku mau mendengar itu lagi darimu. Kau tahu, ada saat-saat ketika aku bertugas pada momen wisuda dan aku berharap itu adalah wisuda adik kecilmu yg kau hadiri. Kadang-kadang aku berharap bahwa kita akan bertemu pada satu momen itu atau sekadar melihatmu dari kejauhan. Tapi kadang aku juga berpikir, jika memang akan terjadi, apa yang akan kulakukan? Hanya diam melihatmu dari kejauhankah? Barangkali juga aku tak akan siap.  Ngomong-ngomong, soal apa yang ingin kuceritakan hari ini. Kau ingat teman yang pergi umrah ...

 Hi, A Remember the song i sent to you 2 years ago? That one you said that you like 'kesapian'. Yes, Refo dan Fauna. I followed him. Turns out, he is very friendly and he is on the same side as me, as you. He spoke about justice and humanity, just like us. Against goverment's stupid policies. Yesterday, he released new song, with universal studio, called "Aku Cape Banget". Very easy listening and just like always, the lyric is so weird. I like his musics. Sometimes when i jogg, i listen to his music and can't hold myself from laughing. I think, his type is just like yours, ENFP. I can easily make friend with fellow ENFP. Mas Bag and my new room mate are ENFP too. I dunno, i think, you and the other fellow ENFPs have skill to entertaint the entire room. I envy how people can easily make a conversation and talk. You know, i'm bad at that thing. I wanted to send his new song to you. I wanted to make up with you, but i stop myself. I may hurt you again. I may ...

 Hi, A Oneday i dreamt about you, but i don't remember what was it. I just knew, when i woke up in the morning, i feel like i wanted to talk to you, really bad. My therapist said that i need to write it up just like if i was talking to you, and here i am...writing up this thing to you. You know, so many thing happened to me after we didn't talk, i lost your contact, coz i try hard not to text you, so i deleted everything about you. You deleted your account. And i barely have no information about you. And when i miss you, i just ride to train station, or go eat to place where you took me to. I just have no clue about how to handle it. How was your day? how are you? Have you find a partner yet? Did you married? How's work? Are you still covering up your friend, who was sick? I really hope you're doing fine, doing good, and still laughing more often. I miss to listen you talked about your friends you used to hang out, pos ronda friends. The one you said became a petugas KP...